fading faith.

i'm tired...

physically, mentally, emotionally.

• no matter how crazy and funny the scenes around you, it is useless without the person you want to laugh with..

• paint ur dreams in bright colors and bold stripes

• where ever you go, go with all your heart

• Life is simple, you make a choice and don’t look back

i just realized that,
my college life is never mentioned in my blog.

college life is hectic.
had maths evaluation and bio test on Thursday, & made me unhappier than before.

sometimes, it's not that i cant do better,
but...
the more i wanted to, the more i made mistake.

perhaps, i shouldn't be so tense.
i take other people's point of view too seriously, as always.
the decisions i make are always based on the judgments of people.
and so, i can't decide well, and see things correctly.

and i don't get what i wished to.

...

Chinese new year is over?
Sigh, tomorrow's the last day already.
No difference for me actually, as my holiday is already over for...a week i think?

By the way, i drove to Jusco yesterday!
yes me! Helped mummy to buy groceries and ingredients for steamboat yesterday.
@.@ disaster man, i still feel funny when i think of daddy's face.
hahaha

Ohhh, before i forget,
coincidentally the other half *Kang Wei Nian and i wore the same color for almost the whole week.
hahahahaha. We're getting more & more "twins-like"? =.=
Mommy even reminds me to pass her Angpow later.
Yes mind me, i'm going to see her later, AGAIN. I see her for almost everyday. Haaha

&... Hmm.
Should I go SuperJunior's concert?
Have been asking Nian the same ques this few days.
I can see that she feels like slapping me already. =\

Will finish up my homeworks today. So i can have fun tmr.
Fun, as in watching Tv, YouTube, Surf TVXQ..
to conclude is being lifeless.
haha. i enjoy not using brain during weekend.

So..i'll stop here aite.

Pictures we snapped the other day in a korean shop nearby Taylors.
!@#@#%#^ expensive!

♥

to my dears,

firstly,

happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to ku @ emily wong yien san,
happy birthday to you !

♥

there's many to say,
until...i don't know how to start my words.

so let's make it short,
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR:)
thanks for brighten up my high sch life.

i'll be there for you as always aite.
stay sweet wit matt aka daddy,
just promise that you wont forget us sisters okay.


♥♥♥
(huey missing in action)

and,

vinshen tham left to taiwan this afternoon.

once we worked hard for society stuffs,
painting banners,
joined camps,
...

...
speechless
okay i'm so so emo now.

why is everyone leaving??!!!

take care & all the best aite!

much ♥s, don't forget us.


gd'bye.
partings are so damn stupid.

Happy Cny!

Furbie greets everyone a happy prosperous tiger year :D

i know i'm superduper late, but still
happy chinese new year everyone! :)

today is the ninth day of cny, the pray ''tin gong'' day.
while waiting the clock to strike 12,
i sneaked up to blog. hehe better than wasting time right?

i always love chinese new year atmosphere.
relatives rushing back to hometown for reunion dinner and stuffs,
so heartwarming.

some random pictures snapped:

mommy loves decorating ,
that's why we always have the mood for any festivals.

totti says hi!

everyone's busy helping out,

on the way back to grandpa's house,

-

there 's times you feel that the whole world left you out,
and the only you can think of is just escape,
escape out of this messy world.

perhaps, the pasts are destined to be the pasts.
never try to move the pasts to the presents,
all you'll get is only disappointment.

so all the best everyone,
let's move on to the future,
who knows what will be welcoming us.
again, happy cny. :)

Nothing in this world is worth having if it comes too easy.

:(!

stop telling me which course is better compared to alvls or the disadvantages of it.

yea. telling me which course is so awesome n wonderful & how good it is.

what for.

if i'm rude enough, i would just shout out.

HELLO THIS IS MY LIFE. MINE.

but of course, i'm not.

that s why i'm here blogging instead of quarreling with ppl.

i mean,

everybody has their own perspective for the future,

i haven't even started my class

& u splashed a pail of cold water to me.

i know,

some of you are really just concerning and worried that i made the wrong decision.

it s really sweet of you.

but..

give me a break.

let me give it a try.

i think...everything will still be perfect as long as i tried my best in everything.

i know it's not easy,

i will study hard. & play hard too! :)

A positive attitude may not solve all of your problems

but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort :)

it is not easy..

when you already feel very lost

& have totally no idea about what s waiting you in the future.

meanwhile, you have to explain over and over again

to convince them that i'm actually making the right choice.

hmphhhh.

i paid my fees for the first semester

i don't see any good turning back, looking at the past.

let's look forward,

have faith in me.

maybe i can do it, maybe.

this time, i can't fail..... :(

Most of us ask for advice when we know the answer already but we want another one.

Life is like a party. Full of suprises.

♥True friends are stain resistant, you can spill anything on them.

nian call us, the girlfriends.

we went out yesterday.

we watched AVATAR.

we stayed at starbucks for 1hours talking about everything in life.

we walked around & ended up bought nothing.

&

i hope nian's father will still have good impression in me,

tho' i have a lil doubt on that.

haha.

lol nobody will thought of us linking together.

sometimes,

things are destined.

best friends are destined to meet each other.

and i, believe in destiny.

:)

ohhh. and i found a quote.

which i think it suits nian and i very well :D

We're all a little weird.

And life's a little weird.
And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,

we joinup in mutual weirdness and people call us besties.

haha. Orientation day is on next tuesday.

excited. nervous. complicated.

=.=

omg, im eighteen already! (;

helloh ppl!

okay, i've been thinking what to blog about for the whole day.

hmm so,

decided to be nostalgic!

(;

LIFE BEFORE SPM.

everyday nerding.
read read read read &..
still read.

ohh, & memorize!

hmph.pathetic? no, not really (:

this is me when im bored. haha

who cares if u camwhore everyday when u re seventeen huh?!

okay, im sad that im eighteen now.

ta-daaaah!

this is our dearest chemistry tuition teacher!

big big thank you to him.

without him, we can die with chemistry books together.

okay.

she might seem very serious.

but, trust me,

she's just pretending.

(:

ewww my hair..

heh. but who cares.

this is the way i should be when i'm preparing spm.

heh :)

S4.

the last time v came, we ordered the exactly same food.

for this time, we wore the same shirt.

hehe ;)

our height are almost the same...

oh okay,

maybe Jolee is a lil different from us,

she's taller.

love u all. :)

fangyin, goodluck in ur law studies yeap!

look! it s ur turn now furbie! :)

he's fur-less before spm.

we sent him to the dog saloon,

& he came back like this...

ohh, and with teary eyes too.

ok. he's good at acting cute. :)

you seeeeee.

acting kesian again!

hahaha.

last but not least.....

let me let this cute lil thing to make a perfect ending for my post!

;)

the 6th day of twenty ten.

so far...

so good?

:)

hmm..going out with two ah girl tmr.

it'll be fun?

yes it will sure be.

nights.

& lots loves,

sze.

Nothing improves the memory more than trying to forget.

the last day of 2009.
...

went back to school to see the kids' perform yesterday.
unluckily, !@#@$@% happened.
eesh. i left chs, i left the society.
what were happening is no longer my business okay.
to the one who should be blamed,
no you dont have to feel lucky, you didn't escape from it,
it's your turn someday. (;

hmm but it s okay, this didnt ruin my mood :)
went KLCC with the kids after that.
tiring? yes, very. enjoyed? yes, i did. :)
i missed them so much. finally, i got to see everyone of you like after 10years.
but, i spent most of the time in Kinokuniya bookshop, while the others went to the playground.
i can never resist the temptation of books.
mags, novels... books spree. :D

hmmph. suprisingly, i have not much feelings about today.
why?
i have too much regrets for 2009, so much things that i can't accomplish.
yes this is why. :)
i'm looking forward for 2010 to come :)

i wonder, did i make any mistake in 2009 ah?
yes la, for sure. =.=
A person who never makes mistakes never makes anything.
haha so, forgive my mistakes.

college life - taylors college.
here i come.
a brand new year, a whole new environment.
let s hope, it'll be fun ? :)

life goes on.
before i stop,
shall say my goodbyes to all the precious ones...
bye catholic high,
bye school mates,
bye 5S4,
bye pbc,
bye drummers,
bye sweet seventeen,
bye....everything.

bye 2009,
hello 2010.


wheeeee! :D

i can' wait, i want to know how it feels like if u have no regrets.
try ur best, do ur best &...
smile with no regrets. :D

Where there is great love, there are always wishes.
i love love u guys, so..
best wishes,
JaySze. :)
cheers!

I’m walking around your mind,
coz i dont know where I stand..